Author: gordsellar

  • Like Father, Like Son

    by Gord Sellar

    It was nothing like it is now:
    Beijing was always the place where collapse began,
    when dynasties died, unlike now, where the South
    reaches up to shake the lagging North.

    It had been a kind of ritual, this flight
    to the South; thus went the Ming,
    at the end of their rule, and someday,
    thus, in like fashion, would fall the Qing.

    But the Young Monarch flees into the night:
    a hundred faithful accompany the boy,
    among them the Shield King, Hong Rengan—
    all moving not like fire and nothing like a flood,
    perhaps more than anything like fugitive
    clouds unable to make rain, or cover the sun.

    Round Lake Tai they hurry, toward Huzhou,
    where English songs fill the streets at night
    for Chinese Gordon’s defectors are there already,
    joined to Hong Rengan, the Shield King.
    An isolated Taiping garrison: waiting.

    Waiting never lasts long enough,
    and soon the Qing come down with terrible fire.
    The British by then are gone, the Ever-Victorious
    Army disbanded, but the French fight on. They, too,
    sing tunes from home, to keep their spirits up,
    and by their sides, though not singing, are more
    defectors: this time, Taiping runaways.

    Rengan and the Young King must flee again.
    South from the city; by pulses, ever south,
    back down to Guangdong, with the Qing dogs
    panting behind them: Rengan is taken
    in October, and makes his testament to Hong,
    and is slain in Jiangxi, at Nanchang, in November.

    But young Tiangui Fu, the Young Monarch, makes good
    his escape from the camp where the Qing had taken
    the Shield King; with a dizane followers, he buries
    himself in a marl-pit.
                                     Heavy the clay, hard and cold
    up to his throat. It is as if all life was
    the state of being buried in the soil
    of a forgotten country you’ve never seen.
    The worms, pernicious seeds that stick to him,
    and the slick of soil that becomes his skin;
    he settles down into it, remembering
    the oil-thick snake of his mother’s hair
    moving across her back as she spoke of kingship.

    Four days of hunger scrape against his will;
    four days of sorrow pin him to the earth:
    he wishes he could spread his arms, and spring
    up into Heaven, to be with his father. But
    wracked from nightmares eventually by hunger,
    he wanders, lonely as a thunderless cloud.

    In the worst of it, where his hunger is transformed
    to longing for his own death — in vision, or fact,
    nobody can tell — a man comes. Tall, slender,
    dressed in white, with winter-white flesh, takes hold
    of him, and puts into his hands a roundel of
    flatbread. In devouring, Tiangui loses track of the man,
    who vanishes into irresistible obscurity.

    Suddenly, the will to live is strong:
    he shaves away his tresses, and becomes
    a laborer named Zhang, a Chinese John Smith,
    and slaves through someone’s harvest, till it is done.

    Then on the road, a road gone much worse by now —
    his father Hong, when robbed, was left a set of clothes —
    Tiangui Fu is robbed of everything; the bandits
    rape him until he bleeds, and leave. A man
    finds him, drags him out of the Guangdong gutter
    and straps loads of bamboo to the boy’s back:
    impromptu slavery, until he can run away.

    Then a Qing patrol finds him, this heir
    of Hong Xiuquan, starving, skin broken in
    a hundred places, teeth snapped, wandering
    by a country road in the coruscating belly
    of a cold and brutal October afternoon.

    A strange hope courses through him even then:
    the doors of his father’s craziness once thrown
    ope to release him from the madness, finally.
    He decries his father’s bloodlust, war-madness,
    showed them his scholar’s soul with open palms,
    confesses to them with tones plaintive and sweet
    that of Heavenly Empires he wants nothing at all,
    but only to be a scholar, study the Analects,
    and write the examinations at Canton someday,
    to attain the lowest degree of licentiate,
    for the last shall be first, and the first likewise be last.

    Irony is not a quality of the world, itself,
    but exists only in our minds, an act of reading:
    nobody smirks when his head drops down
    into the heavy dirt of Guangdong.
                                                              And likewise
    No sound out of Shangdi; the heavens do not weep,
    temples are silent, and peasants wait still for nothing.
    Hong makes no word, Yushu is silent, no Majestic
    Celestial-Dragon plunges from the sky, scales flashing,
    shimmering claws, screaming its voice wider than rivers,
    and deeper; no regulatory unicorns of death; even
    Guan Yin lodges no complaint with the Son of Heaven.

  • Shelbyville

    by Gord Sellar

    on the other hand, is like any other place. People work
    the land, tumble their bones back home at sundown,
    marry, bear babies in their arms, sleep not enough,
    and every so often they drag their sweat-drenched skins
    down to the big tents by the cool twisting waters,
    to hear ’bout the Lord and the fearsome fires of Hell.

    Issachar watches their faces as they get dunked below
    the surface of the water, the faces they make
    when the Lord touches the roots of their heart
    with the tip of His old finger. They look scared,
    to him, at first, and then the sudden sunburst
    of relief, of vigilant baptized love, suddenly blooms.

    The water up to his waist, Issachar is pensive.
    His preacher’s voice doesn’t roar the same in the river:
    instead, he whispers salvation to any who have
    ears to hear. His mind is not on eternal salvation
    or damnation, however. A forgivable distraction.
    No, he’s thinking about the souls in a city named Canton.

    Issachar watches them in the tents, after his sermon.
    Seems every year, more people know the words,
    and sing along, over the gee-tars and the banjoes, like
    a pack of rabid toothy angels, hungry for Paradise.
    They break their bread, they set themselves again
    on the highway out of Hell and back to the Lord.

    It would be one thing, if he was thinkin’ himself
    another John the Baptist, pridefully sinning.
    But in the end, it is just a matter of economics,
    though Issachar Roberts could never put it that way.
    No, old Issachar’s never read Adam Smith, but just
    the same, he’s an economist of the human soul.
    Zealotry is hardly enough to bear him to the East.
    But imagine him imagining the dividends,
    imagine the profits, the demand in that kind of market
    so starved for some good old-style salvation.

    The hungry Chinamen. The needy, poor struggling
    masses. Tennessee has its share of ignorance, but
    it ain’t got nothing on all of China. Sometimes
    he puts his ear to the ground, and he can hear them
    down there, crying out for salvation from the shackles of
    sinful ignorance. Old Issachar knows what they need.

    The letter from Gutzlaff, a Chinese missionary,
    what letter arrived the other morning in
    the post, is laden with enticements and
    exhortation, yet clinches it. He sets his wife down,
    explains that they will need to start packing.

  • Canton, 1836

    by Gord Sellar

    John Dewey, arriving in Canton after a long stay in North China, noted with some surprise the cultural contrast and a temperamental similarity to the Latin peoples.
    — Jen Yu-wen, The Taiping Revolutionary Movement

    The esplanade is the most exotic region
    in the city. You can find there strange peoples:
    Dutch, English, French, black Indiamen, Manilamen,
    even Italians . . . though of course they are all just fan kuei.
    Some Cantonese come here just to watch the foreigners.

    It looks as if all the trees in Guangdong
    were hacked down to make these ramshackle stands
    from which small, singularly ambitious men
    hawk silks, and soy, and sweet cakes, soup and meat
    and offers, dark and splendid, constantly circulating
    in their yells, but only at the white men, in their pidgin.
    Nobody from Canton would want to bring
    a nonsensical dead chicken home to eat.

    Pidgin: business. Pidginess. This city is full
    of pidgin: war-pidgin, lof-pidgin (of countless girls),
    joss-pidgin (for joss is deus, their foreign God);
    chin-chin when you gather in ten and talk,
    and everyone wants to be your numba one
    olo flen, when the goodee chop come.

    Fortunes! Prophecies? They cost you only silver,
    if you go on that way, yes, just down this aisle.
    Past the Taoist quacks and the Buddhist priests,
    and a proud catcher of rats, his victims strung
    to bamboo poles, dangling massive vermin,
    warrior crickets, smiling maids with bright silks
    tying their hair back — Portugese-styled working girls —
    tinkers meddling with the delicate guts of locks,
    cages of birds, for admiration or the table,
    and drab old wrinkly hens — widows — with needles
    ready to darn your every little tear.

    Everything in Canton seems to be for sale.

    In some of the shops, you can find things
    that even smell like another country:
    strange pictures sketched too full, too colorful,
    not the twig-and-branch-lined work of local artists,
    framed in wood. Battle scenes filled with white men’s
    blood, surprisingly crimson as any Han’s.

    The foreigners puzzle, marvel constantly
    at quotidian things, ceaselessly amazing:
    a dead baby girl abandoned in the street —
    nearby two rag-clothed girls hand in hand,
    clutching wooden begging bowls, giggle together,
    walk with white-hazed, sightless eyes that defy
    the city to harm them, their laughter itself a ward;
    in the undergrowth of their filthy scalps, hidden
    lice engage in secret, gentle crucial maneuvers,
    as if it were they who were the city’s linguists,
    bridging the gap between locals and the outsiders,
    delivering secret their messages quietly,
    like opium-smugglers moving through the night.

  • Panopticon (Live From Madison Street Jail)

    by Gord Sellar

    glittering of remote eyes
    the bars are one and two and three
    a walnut shell of infinite size
    the cell becomes a world for me

    digitally captured
    transmitted through the atmosphere
    microradiation scars
    the webcast viewers’ gleeful cheer

    this is your life before the lens
    this is the way the old world ends
    this is the way we blur the border
    this is the way we keep things in order

    clipper chips buzz off away
    while we’re imprisoned in prime time
    people reason reason away
    and lo and behold, our ratings climb

    this is your life before the lens
    this is the way the old world ends
    this is the way we blur the border
    this is the way we keep things in order

    it comes like a virus,
    a secret kingdom consolidating,
    microviewers and spook machines
    constantly preparing, evading, invading

    spreads like virus, spreads like language
    infiltrating, poisonou sight
    stumble into the coming age
    haloed in flickering light

    Panopticon, you are everything
    Panopticon, you endemic trick
    Panopticon, you are everywhere
    Panopticon, and we don’t care
    this is your life before the lens
    this is the way the old world ends
    this is the way we blur the border
    this is the way we keep things in order


    Another song written for my old band but which never ended up going beyond the melody-and-lyrics point, for reasons I can’t recall. By this point, it may well have been despairing of anything actually getting past that point. (I began to think of songwriting for that particular group a waste of time for me after a certain point, for reasons I won’t get into here.)

    The “Live From Madison Street Jail” reference is to the use of webcams in Madison Street Jail in downtown Phoenix, Arizona. A more recent article about the court case that erupted over it is here, with a pretty positive outcome… sort of.

  • In the Mood

    by Gord Sellar

    wishbone in hand, puzzle
    world around my head, it comes
    and goes, this vertigo that tells me
    I am in a strange place, words
    that make no sense make sense
    to me suddenly, let’s go and
    no thank you and two beer
    please. a crazy man tells me fumbling
    you are saxophone hero for his
    country, and I think he is a member
    of an indigenous clade of gangster,
    and he gives me mekju which is beer
    in his bar between songs, offers of
    chicken. it is something about a white
    face in this crowd, they don’t hear
    sour notes so sour, and this makes my
    edges squirm, and my muscles crouch.
    there is something wrong with this picture,
    but nothing I can really do besides
    put the beer down and grab my horn.

    — Iksan, South Korea, 2002


    It’s true, every word of it.

    ye olde jazz posse

  • Davis on Sherbrooke

    by Gord Sellar

    the anapests and dactyls of jazz
    combine, enfold, iambs hidden at
    the inner ear, and I could be
    any city, could write any city
    but this one. plastic bags, small
    bits of paper float the dark lit
    air; breeze menuet, impressionistic
    jazz, Nefertiti sings the mannequins
    their static pavanes, lachrymae,
    lachrymae, behind glass walls;
    advertisement at night, when we all
    are least at risk, undressed and
    sleeping, though I neglect my
    Faulkner, take a long way back,
    trochée Miles and miles of concrete
    blooming us its incandescent wildflowers,
    I pick them, with mind set
    aside, knowing I pick here;
    deciding with my feet that I
    have come far enough; then home.

    — Montreal, 2000

  • tatters

    by Gord Sellar

    there is only one book that secretly all
    are obliged to read, its single page
    covered in scrawl that changes with each breath,
    with every thought, the lines of text that turn
    and bind themselves into knots, each one.

    it is much harder when cities don’t sound exotic
    like, say, Atthis under a rose-fingered moon
    much harder when there is no room for music,
    no room weave in, no snide ελεπτολιζ,
    no ελανδροζ on which to lay the weight of the world.

    fishy shadow and whitecap everywhere, the brine
    fails not to wash over the bodies of those
    who manage to swim to the shore, to come to a land
    close enough that they speak the same language, can tell
    you the way home. even there, the ocean comes

    to the body again, scouring. some ways it cleanses
    but only brackishly. you lie on your back and try
    to breathe. you wonder what your name was, or is.
    you imagine seeing land, seeing masts, strange women
    crossing the surface of the water to attend to you.

    — Montreal, 1999

  • Winnie the Pooh, by H.P. Lovecraft, in his Japanophile Stage:

    by Gord Sellar

    the bear feasts
    picnic bloodfeast under the
    gibbous moon
    THE END

    — Montreal, 2001

  • The Expatriate

    by Gord Sellar

    here I am at the checkout
    handing over funny-colored
    money, again, and wondering
    if there is a day coming
    when no vegetable on
    earth will seem strange to me

    — Iksan, South Korea, 2003

  • What Fools

    by Gord Sellar

    if I could but drink the blood of Oberon
    and feast his flesh, and suck the marrow coarse
    in half a dream, I could (I do believe)
    come to bring the south unto the north
    and light to dark worlds would then come,
    and I as King would then collect the taxèd sum.

    for Oberon is Alberich–yes elvenking is dwarf;
    he ought to travel south to drip his golden rings for me.
    and in this shape I wear tonight, this form of beast
    I could rule this shattered world, both brittle earth and sea;
    tearing concrete from the soil and metal from the loam
    and make in wilderness my seat of power and my throne

    my name is not a spell these days; ’tis dry
    my pow’r is ever on the wane, a well of dust
    and if I should ever more come across unpair’d man
    his forgotten ancient words make barrier to my game
    but underneath your dreams, along the tidy shadowed streets,
    Puck rhymes your dreams, and lies betwixt thy so-clean sheets.

    — Saskatoon, 1998

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